The last hope... HCG Diet

I'm so hopeful. I'm starting my hcg diet today. I am not a dieter. Well, I never thought I was until I gained some... a LOT... of weight. I was the girl you hated in High School and College and throughout my 20's. I ate and drank whatever I wanted and still looked like a middle school boy, (bodywise); thin, no hips, no waistline, no boobs, no fat, very athletic and very energetic. I didn't do organized sports or work out. I just walked a lot, danced a lot and had a killer metabolism.
Anyway, I'm fat now. I have 3 boys and gained and kept the weight with each of them. I still don't recognize myself in the mirror and pictures, and I thought that if I kept doing the stuff I was doing, I would lose the weight. I've tried the pills, the exercise (TaeBo REALLY works), and lots of other stupid things. I ate a cotton ball once... I'm such an idiot.
Exercise is really the only thing that will do. But to kick start it, because I am so depressed right now, I am going on the HCG diet. I will do a daily blog about it and how it works. I have looked up as much as I can about it and have heard testimonials from so many people, that if it doesn't work on me, I will be convinced that I have a serious medical problem.
Ok, that said, today is the starting date of a 3 week long program. Here is how it goes.
Day 1 and 2 EAT AS MUCH AS YOU CAN TO GAIN FAT WEIGHT.
Take the drops 3 times a day.
Let's stop there. I'll go through the whole diet day to day.  Let's begin shall we?

DAY 1.
I'm on day one and I weigh about 150. My Goal is 120-125. I need to lose 30 pounds of fat which has spread all over my body. My face, legs, tummy and back are pockets of gross, unfit fat.
Today,  I've eaten a LOT today and feel really awful. I hate this already! I feel sick and gross.
Breakfast: I ate 2 bowls of puffed wheat cereal with whole milk. coffee
Lunch: Took Max to Noodles n Co and had a regular bowl of mac n cheese with hambuger, bacon and tomatoes, nantucket juice - I feel ill
Movies: popcorn with butter, dibs, junior mints, slushy
Dinner: 1 pound of crab legs with butter, water, coffee, baked potato with sour cream, salad with ranch, and one biscuit
I feel really sick. My leg hurts. Think my heart is hurting...
Took the drops at 9am, 12am, 6pm

Ok HERE WE GO.
Please work, please work, please work.